Just Because

I haven't posted a picture of Addison in a while. I love this little one. She brings me so much joy and frustration at the same time. How does that work exactly? Anyway she is getting so big and fun, more fun each day. Her favorite things are the cat, her dad, Ni Hoa Kilan, Wonderpets, Roxy (Maryina's Dog), dancing and running laps around the living room furniture. So funny.

Eruption Cyst...

Addi has been so crabby the last couple of days and I couldn't figure it out. I have been busy doing Christmas stuff, and just thinking she is not getting enough attention. Then my mom watched her on Tuesday and suggested that she might be getting her first molars. I know this stuff!!!...I've been a Dental Assistant for 10 years! I didn't even think she could be teething and getting her first molars yet. So I did what any strange person that likes to look in peoples mouths did and jammed my fingers up there and sure enough its not only teething she has a huge eruption cyst/hematoma on her upper left. It looks SO painful. And there is nothing I can do about it... I hate this part. No antibiotics, nothing. Her little body will take care of it on its own. Yuck. I feel helpless and neglectfull. I know this stuff, but it doesn't make me feel any better.

My house is in shambles....

I love the Christmas Season. I start listening to Christmas music in October. I love it, it makes me happy, in kind of a serial killer sort of way but...happy non the less. But I am seriously thinking of bagging the tree, wreaths, ornaments, nativity etc.. that I have and cherish. A one year old and glass ball ornaments do not mix. The tree is already up and the lights strung but that is as far as I've gotten. Its either me chasing the cat from under the tree from destroying the presents or keeping Addi out of the BINS of decorations that are strewn around my house. I'm supposed to have a cheerful attitude about the whole thing. I feel guilty for not loving this. At my wits end with the decorations is not a good place to be. On top of it I am doing neighbor gifts, family gifts, pie, turkey, and a gazillion family parties to attend and the ward clerk HASSLING me about tithing settlement? Seriously he called twice yesterday to set up an appt. I ignored him the second time. He probably would have been the person to sling my wrath upon but I refrained. so proud
I want to start a fire in my back yard and throw every Christmas decoration/thing in it and laugh hysterically. Does no one feel the same way I do?